Why the fuhk is this happening… I feel so alone ! And my friends are never there for me unless I voice out that I felt that way! I need to get away ! Too many problems that I can’t handle alone but I’m doing it ! And all over a stupid guy putting me in a love rollercoaster and not even meaning too. I sound like a pathetic girl, I haven’t had these feelings for a guy in such a long time, the butteflies when I see him, the smile he puts on my face just by talking to me or just by me catching a glimpse of him at work. Someone who has a girlfriend isn’t suppose to give me these feelings, why wasn’t my guard up for this one !! How did I let him in so easily ! The desire I have for him is just crazy ! I think about him constantly , keep my eye on him whenever I can just so I can see him and get that happy feeling inside , it upsets me when he says good things about me and bad about his girlfriend , doesn’t he get that I can make things so much better for him. I’m not one to judge relationships based off stories only because of the fact I would never hear the good in her, only the bad. She’s obviously better than me though cause I don’t have him. He doesn’t realize what he does to me and I don’t understand how he does it but he does. I don’t feel complete if I don’t say by to him, I feel like I always need to see him ..why can’t he just feel the same :( wanting something I can’t have is the worse feeling , tumblr , ur the only on that knows my true feelings. If anyone ever knew what I felt for this boy and how he affects me and how him simply not being mine makes me so sad , i wouldnt look as strong as I do on the outside…people see lies, think I’m happy and I put a smile on the outside, inside I’m really crying ;/ I know one day it will all be over
Note to heart: if you can get stronger and put your guard up and build back stronger anytime soon that would be great . Thanks …
